Life is Change

Life is change, but it isn’t always the kind that jingles in your pocket. Four years ago my life changed. It changed for the better, but it broke my heart to do it. Today, my heart breaks again. I know I did the right thing; the only thing I could do to live a better life. But, knowing that in my head, doesn’t heal the heart any faster. My biggest problem is how alone I feel with my pain today.

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This week I will try not to be idle. There are several things going on but also several things that need to be done that I've been putting off. I've already started by going grocery shopping this morning. It's probably been a month or more since I've really gone grocery shopping. We've picked up a few things here and there but my husband opened the fridge and said, "Our fridge needs friends." Hint, hint. It has many friends now.

I clean twice this week, need to do some sewing, need to get the car to the mechanics, and will be going north to see my niece in her high school musical. Not to mention picking up the slack at home, i.e. cleaning the bathroom, doing laundry, picking up, etc...

My husband's job dissolves this week. We're praying for a job offer before the week ends.

This week I will:

1. Work
2. Sew
3. Clean
4. Visit my fabulous sister and her family!

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Another crazy week, but very exhilarating. I spent Monday in Augusta at a state wide Ambassadors meeting for Maine Center for Women Work and Community. I was impressed by the energy that those women, and one man, exuded, and I was part of it. I even got up in front of everyone and did a small presentation. I was told I was a good speaker by somebody I had only met that day. She went out of her way to speak to me, just to pay me a compliment. I was floating. I am also surprised to find that I enjoyed it. I enjoyed being in front of 50 people, sharing information, and having them eagerly listening. I even got a few laughs, which was never my intention, but happened seamlessly. Maybe I have found where I will make the biggest difference; my hook.

On Tuesday I spent the morning at Penmor Lithographers, a print shop out of Lewiston. It is a large facility that offers a very wide variety of printing options. They don’t have a design staff, but some of their pre-press people design prototypes of boxes and packaging. I felt, again, I was where I belonged. I was able to converse easily with the owners of the company as they showed me around. Because of my experience with Northeast Publishing, I understood what the equipment did and what questions to ask. I was told more than once that it was nice to speak with a designer who knew the back side of the printing process.

I drove to Bangor and had lunch with Mandy, Eric and the kids. It was so nice to see them again, though the time flew by and before I knew it, it was time to head north again. I always feel my roots when I am around them. I can't wait to go back down for Black Friday Shopping with Arianna. Ok, so maybe not looking forward so much to the actual shopping and lines, but spending time with Mandy and the kids.

The last three days have been a whirlwind of running Arianna to her drama practices, finishing quotes and starting some of the projects that have been in the wings. Friday is opening night for Ari’s play, and I will be there, where I should be, cheering her on and taking far too many photos, in her opinion.

It has been a great week. I feel refreshed and have a new energy for DbR. Unfortunately I have to go back to MMA on Monday. I am trying not to think about it, as it will distract me from what I have to complete this weekend.

1. Complete design for Bartley b.cards
2. Finish typing notes from the WWC meeting for the local meeting on Thursday morning.
3. Work on SMP’s branding items
4. Clean the house
5. Find homes for some puppies

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Last week was awesome! I was extra busy working for The Occasional Housewife. My clients were extremely happy with my work and were more than happy to pay for the service. One of my clients who initially contracted me for just the week, promised to contact me for regular cleanings in the future. Another client asked that I concentrate on her kitchen area because she was having dinner guests. So I did a little redecorating and clearing of clutter. It's always a little touchy not knowing what people will think of what you've done with their home, but she emailed me later to say Thank You and how much she liked it. The work is strenuous sometimes but the pay and compliments make it worth it, of course.

This week is not so busy. Just one day of work this week. However, I'm also looking forward to lunch and a little shopping with Row on Tuesday. I'll be spending some time cleaning my house and maybe clearing the garage. I also need to get the kids back on their regular school schedule. My being away much of last week, kind of caused them to slack off. Starting Friday we have a marriage seminar at church followed by special services. The Ensey's are always great speakers and I look forward to hearing them.

This week I will:

1. Clean home and away
2. Attend Marriage Retreat and special services
3. Meet up with Row
4. Take dog to vet
5. Sew
6. Set up school schedule

Time Urgency Syndrome

Mandy set me up with a subscription to Entrepreneur magazine. I received my second issue a couple of days ago. I finally got a chance to read it Sunday morning. There was a specific article that really resonated with me; TickTick Boom!

Time urgency is the constant clock checking, stressed-out, intense feeling of deadline panic. It is a pressure that we put on ourselves and is derived from our own self-induced, unrealistic estimations of what will make us successful.

I suffer from this, sometimes debilitating, ailment. I look at my to-do list and immediately begin to panic. My throat gets tight, my patience withers to non-existent, and I immediately want to give up or throw up or both. I have gone and done it again. I have over promised and now I will proceed to show myself as a sham. And, somehow, I know that I am forgetting something.

The article likens time urgency to intoxication. It hinders the ability to make rational decisions based on sound judgment. Because everything is an emergency, nothing get accomplished; and poor business practices become the norm, as projects are rushed through and mistakes are made.

It is at this point, the article recommends, you should do the last thing you want to do; step away from the task list. Take a few deep breaths; get rid of the clock; realistically prioritize the list and begin again. This time, pick a task and involve yourself completely in that one task. Worrying about the other dozen things will only muddy the creative waters and make you ineffective.

Though stopping the headless-chicken dance is difficult, I have found a great sense of accomplishment in going, step by step, through my lists. I have been surprised how much I can accomplish when my eyes are on the task at hand and not on the clock.

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Happy Birthday to Me!! 33 years young. Feeling good. Working hard. Moving forward.

It is funny that Mandy was waiting for me to post so she could make the 100th entry. She deserves to make that entry, as I hadn’t even noticed we had written so many. I actually periodically check to see if she has posted, because once she does, then I feel the pressure to write one myself. Foolish procrastination. I actually feel pretty good this time as I will be posting numbers 100 and 101, back to back.

I am so proud of where Mandy and I have gotten to this year. There have been some major hurtles, but it feels as though we are both stronger and more confident because of them. A year ago, I never would have seen myself as a Women Work and Community Ambassador, teaching others, being a community leader. Or being asked to be part of a major Bridal EXPO due to my graphic abilities. Having young up-and-comers referred to me for advice and direction would have been unthinkable. A year ago the idea of making DbR a real entity was a dream. I am watching as it solidifies before my eyes and I am in awe.

Mandy had some of the biggest upheavals happen this year, and yet, she has persevered. She had an idea for a business, and due to circumstance, has made it a reality. I know we will end this year with a tremendous momentum that will easily carry us into next year.

Mandy, here’s to 100 posts. Love you, Sis. Thanks for being my companion in this journey together.

I can hardly put together what I have been doing for the past week. It’s been so hectic. I have managed to get my schedule transferred to Google calendar. My poor day planner was running out of room, though I won’t give it up completely. It has become like a security blanket. Since doing that over the weekend, I have been able to get some checks in place so that nobody falls through the cracks. I have completed all of the quotes that I had assigned myself to do, on time. There are a couple more to do, and some quick follow-up emails before the weekend. I finished NMMS logo to the client’s complete satisfaction. Met with two clients last week and had four meetings on Saturday. I am starting to feel like a real business. I am jazzed and full of positive energy.

I didn’t get everything done last week, but have made the conscious decision to move them onto this weeks list, as I think they are important enough.

1. Finish up two more quotes
2. Schedule client meeting for next week
3. Begin design work on a couple of projects
4. Contact non-winners with biz card deal
5. Contact possible bridal expo vendors
6. Get window fixed in house (finally)
7. Prep for next weeks travel and vacation

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I was hoping Row would post first so I could have the privilege of posting our 100th post to 2010 Progress... Oh well. I'll give that honor to you, Row. :)

This week is shaping up to be very busy. Last week I met with a potential client who was ecstatic with the fact that I would come in for a one time cleaning. He loved the idea behind The Occasional Housewife and didn't hesitate to schedule a cleaning. With his wife working as a full time physician, 4 year old twins, his own terrible allergies, and an upcoming event hosted at their house, he needed my help. I viewed the home and gave him my hourly rate and a time quote. I started cleaning this morning. I'll be returning tomorrow to finish the job and then will go back on Friday to do a quick once-over before their event this weekend. I believe this could turn into a more permanent client.

Eric has an interview at a local bank this week. His current contract will be ending on the 15th of this month. I am believing God to open the right door, no matter how much I want it to be the door to this bank. :)

Today is November 1st. We're down to the last two months of 2010. I'm hoping it goes out with a bang and not with regret. I have really enjoyed having the outlet of this blog to keep things in focus and also be able to go back and look at everything that has transpired through the year... good or bad. Here's to making these last 2 months count!

This week I will:

1. Work, work, work, work!
2. Visit with a friend
3. Bake cookies for SS
4. Wood day/ project night
5. Sew